~ A GENT WILL BUCK A G ~

One of my biggest pet peeves are actors. Now when i say actors i mean people who front like their something they're not. Before i continue on with this post let me fill you in on a little situation that happen to me the other day.

So i had an interview in Mississauga with a small magazine company for an editor's position. After my interview i quickly stopped by square one to maybe buy a coffee from Starbucks or just anything from Starbucks. So I'm walking by yogun fruz and down the stairs to the Starbucks which is the first store in the food court. To my right i see about 8-10 Filipino dudes wearing all their new and latest crooks and castle tee's, some fitteds, tight ass jeans with some sb dunks, chains and all that. Now I'm not hating on how they're dressing, i don't do that. People can wear what they want to wear, i'm not one to judge because its about who's wearing the cloths that matters. Although what got to me was they were all breaking they're necks looking at me, mumbling this and whispering that. Because i was coming from an interview i was in a suit, but because i had a fade and some earrings on these dudes felt they can watch me as hard as they can, now mind you they looked like they were my age. So i asked the ringleader, who pretty much looked like the ringleader because he was the one mugging the hardest what they were looking at. He replied "Nothing gangster just admiring the suit", now when he said that, he was not only being sarcastic but his little goons were smiling and laughing so i replied with..."Thanks, but don't get the suit twisted i can pretty much knock any punk down whenever i want". They turned around, laughed a little and kept looking back at me so i said "YO, feel free to try me if you want, i have nothing to do right now so let me know". Then one of their phone's went off and they bounced.

Now, i am not 16 or 17 anymore i do not fight or get into unnecessary altercations. But regardless of the situation i will still and ALWAYS hold my own. No matter how big, how ripped, if im out numbered or out classed i guarantee i will put up a NASTY fight. Now once again you're going to have some haters reading this, saying this dude is cocky but for the people that know me, you're probably saying, yeah he's actually right about that. BTW i feel like i ALWAYS have to write that sentence just to justify my validity, that's just how many haters i know and how WELL i know them.

Anyways, that's neither here nor there. Basically what i am trying to say is this, there are probably only a hand full of people living who REALLY know me, and when i say really know me, i mean they know that when I'm angry especially when it involves another male, something takes over and i literally lose my mind. I will say this, and i know i have a few city's to vouch for me on this...I am not the biggest, strongest or toughest guy out there but word is bond, no matter WHO you are, try and fight me and you'll end up face down. I hate addressing this and i hate having to bring this up, but there are just too many guys out there who seriously think they have something on me. For any guy that just met me this year or last year, you have no idea what I'm about. And for any guy that mean mugs me, my suggestion is look down.

Yeah, my girlfriend has made me a little more calm and definitely changed me for the better, but when a guy has over 22 fights under his belt, that will never die. It might hide, but it won't die.

I'm almost 23 years old now, i have a good job an amazing family and great support team. I have a girlfriend who in my mind is not real, a type of girl that only exists in movies and in dreams, especially my dreams and she's all mine. I have a nephew is almost two years old and a future that i'm extremely excited for. A guess this G turned into a Gent but sometimes i still have to let it be known, without the sugarcoat. Sometimes i still have to let it be known and be harsh and straight forward no matter what people think. Sometimes i still have to let it be known just to remind people in case they forgot or lost touch of who i am. Sometimes i still have to let it be known regardless of who i am now...Sometimes i have to let this messege be known,Don't Fuck With Me.

~ So I Put This On My Life ~

Gotta Post Again.


"She do anything necessary for him, and i do anything necessary for her,
So don't let the necessary occur"

~ DAY N NIGHT ~

I know this song is mad old but i love this video and still love the song. There was an original video but i guess his manager didn't feel like it would attract alot of people so this is the new one that airs on tv. I don't know what to make of this dude yet, i can't really knock anything about him because he makes good music. I know kanye put him on so his credibility is legit, i guess we'll see how his first album goes before i can draw up a proper conclusion about dude. I gotta say though, the new school of rappers are looking pretty good these days, i really feel like hiphop is SLOWLY but surely coming back. With guys like wale, cudi, cons is doing his thing still, Drake is alright but the rhymes have been falling short as of late and thats not really a good look for an upcoming artist. Asher Roth, in my opinion leads all these guys as far as lyrical content and creativity goes. He really doesn't have one set flow, but drops fire regardless. We'll see how 2009 looks for hiphop, 2008 was eh. Although the deadly trio of 50, em and Dre are back together this year, also blueprint 3 from the god hova, and a rock album from lil wayne? INTERESTING YEAR AHEAD OF US.

~ THIS IS SO NASTY ~

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~ WE LOVE ~

QTIP x CONS x KANYE WEST.
BACK IN THE LAB, TOGETHER.
BOMB BOMB

~ PHARELL vs. MCDONALDS ~

~ STYLE ON EM ~

I MUST GET THIS WATCH. BATHING APE PINK G-SHOCK. OKAY

~ SHE HAD IT ALL FIGURED OUT ~

Let the hating BEGIN. At a time where music is growing faster than the raptor's losing streak, change is mandatory. If you walk around with $250,000 in your pocket i think it's safe to try something new. For anyone that hates on wayne for doing this, i don't blame you. But at the same time, ask yourself why CANT he do this? He's pretty much dominated rap in 06,07,and 08. He has Room to mess around like this, anyways this song grew on me. =) PROM QUEEN

~ Maybe This Will Do The Trick ~

Look for me
Young B
Cruisin' down the westside highway
Doin' what we like to do our way
Eyes behind shades, this necklace the reason
All of my dates been blind dates
But today, I got my thoroughest girl wit me
I'm mashin' the gas, she's grabbin' the wheel, it's true to the heart
She rides wit me - the new Bobby and Whitney
Only time we don't speak is durin' "Sex and the City"
She gets Carrie feva, but soon as the show's ova
She's right back to being my souljah
Cuz mami's a rida, and I'm a rolla
Put us togetha, how they gon' stop both us?
Whateva she lacks, I'm right over her shoulder
When I'm off track mami is keepin' me focused
So let's lock this down like it's supposed to be
The '03 Bonnie and Clyde, Hov' and B, holla

The problem is, you dudes treat the one that you lovin'
Wit the same respect that you treat the one that you humpin'
That ain't 'bout nuttin' - if eva you mad about sunntin'
It won't be that; oh no it won't be that
I don't be at, places where we comfy at
With no be-atch; oh no you won't see that
And no, I ain't perfect - nobody walkin' this earth's surface is
But girlfriend, work wit the kid
I keep you workin' that Hermes Birkin bag
Manolo Blahnik Timbs, aviator lens
600 drops, Hercedes Benz
The only time you wear Burberry to swim
And I don't have to worry, only worry is him
She do anything necessary for him
And I do anything necessary for her
So don't let the necessary occur, yep!

Beyonce:

If I was your girlfriend
I'll be there for you, if somebody hurts you
Even if that somebody was me
Yeah-hee (break it down for 'em)
Sometimes I trip on how happy we could be
And so I put this on my life
Nobody or nothin' will ever come between us
And I promise I'll give my life
My love and my trust if you was my boyfriend (one more time)
Put this on my life
The air that I breathe in, all that I believe in
I promise I'll give my life
My love and my trust if you was my boyfriend

~ Did You Forget ~

"At the end of the day when you really break things down and think about it, you're one hell of a guy. From everything i heard about you to how you are as a person, any girl would be beyond lucky to have you, in my opinion and im sure in other's aswell, no guy out there has nothing on you so you should really laugh at your insecurities. Think about it, i know looks don't mean anything but you've dated nothing but amazing girls, some a little off but still extremely hard to get at the same time so why walk with your head down? You have a great job, an amazing family, goodlooks, nice car, a true gentleman, funny, swagger, you read, you write, you know how to have fun but still know how to chill out, your great with kids, polite, helpful, you're bad when you want to be and your just to real for your own good. If i was you i would walk with my chin up to the sky with the biggest smile on your face. I don't know how many times you have to hear it but you are literally one of a kind so act like it for god's sake. Whatever it is that got you down, don't let it because the fact of the matter is, You're just one of the guys that girls wish they could've held on to more after you're gone. Hope this cheers you up homeboy"

Goodlookin x WORD.

~ My Turn ~

Quiet Storm.
Something said Breathe and Act.
Breathe and Act.
Breathe and Act.
Tonight.

~ Intervention ~

When things get a little rough for me, i choose to keep to myself. I find that cluttering my mind with other things wouldnt really help or benefit the situation at all. Going out to chill or do whatever doesn't exactly give me time to think about things or how i can make things better, so what do i do? I drive to starbucks, buy a regular black coffee and read comic after comic until my mind is calm and my blood isnt boiling anymore. It is now 4:39 am and i am still feeling the effects of that massive coffee, i'm wide awake and have nothing to do. But after everything that went down yesterday, i came to many conclusions about different things. Some good and some bad, the bad really sucks but the good can eventually and hopefully mean something better later on. I want to give a quick shout out to spider-man, Wolverine, Deadpool, Every Avenger and member of the infinity Crusade, Venom, Thor, Hawkeye, Gambit and Magneto for keeping me sane lastnight. My love for comic's has returned ! But it's not staying, the days when i read comic books are long gone and i really don't plan to re-live them in full effect. I don't know why it's saying the post time is 1:33 am when its clearly Quarter to 5 now, strange.

For a second i really thought no one read my blog, i don't really get to crazy with promoting it nor do i advertise it as much as the next blog. Although i was pleasently surprised when i found out how many people actually read it, not alot of comments at all but i got messeges on msn from people telling me to write more and express more what i need to say. People telling me to stop grazing the surface of issues and begin to dig deeper. I ran into my friend at sq1 today and she told me how my blog is on her blackberry as a favorite, i didn't believe so she showed me and i was thrown back, goodlookin homie. I love how i still get that love, and not those stupid hater comments suggesting im a little too drama or emotional, those kinds or people are just not mentally in tune with themselves the way i am. Jump down to previous blogs if you REALLY want to know why i am this way.

" The Reason why i like your blog is because i know the whole idea of it is nothing more than a tease, i know you well enough to know that you really are dumbing yourself down just because you know people arn't ready for what you have to say. Thats when you know your ahead of your time big homie, keep it up "

Now i don't want to be picky, but i would appreciate it if people actually left comments on my BLOG and not on msn or facebook chat haha or on my blackberry haha.

ANYWAYS. it's ten to five so i really have to attempt to go to sleep, word. Until next time, keep posted.
Good Morning World.

~ Back To Hello ~

When do things in a relationship begin to get scary, when does happiness turn into pain. Someone told me today, it doesn't matter what went down nor does it matter who was wrong. It doesn't matter if the person loves you back nor does it matter if they care, all that matters is how YOU yourself feel inside. See, today was hard for me, extremely hard for me and i was left with two options as of 1:30am. Either i say you know what, she was wrong therefore she has to fix things and she has to come to me. OR i can act my age, smarten up and do what i gotta do for my relationship to make it right. But before i do that, let me say something...

When you have something really good, and you know that 80% of the time he will treat you good. My suggestion is to look at that 80% when an arguement goes down. That 80% will give you all the proof and resources you need to make things right. Remember that being angry and upset is nothing but a feeling, nothing more. But love, real love is something extremely rare. Basically what im trying to say is this, there are alot of messed up relationships out there, cheating boyfriends, lying boyfriends, and the same goes with girls. But if you have someone who's intentions for you are nothing but good, try and see that and hold on to that person. Don't be a person who only see's all the good in someone after they're gone, because you become nothing more than a statistic.

AH, BRB.

~ Life's a Chase ~

This is a random photo that i found on my computer of me chasing a bird. Why did i post this? I have no idea, i just thought it looked funny. This is going to be a completely useless post, i'm just wide awake and bored. I have the week off of work so im intentionally staying awake. Although i am keeping myself highly productive, i color co-ordinated my closet, i've done about 3 loads of laundry and cleaned out my computer again.

Anyways, i usually write all of my post on notepad first, go through them a few times then post them here afterwards. I actually have about 12-14 post that i have saved that i just keep getting back to every so often, when they're all complete i'll post them one by one. I find that My blogsite is a drastically watered down invitation to what exactly goes on through my head. Why do water it down? it's simple, if i was to completely hit everyone up with how i feel about things, you're going to catch those "Knowledge Haters" [Description on post below] Who are going to call me the usualy words that Haters use..."Drama, Too Sensitive, Emotional". I usually clasify those people into one category and that category is as follows...People who don't understand or know, but really think they do thus resulting in them looking like idiots. Although there is a large group of real intellects who actually read my blog and say "Yeah that's some serious shit, speak whatever's on your mind, why hold back?". Those are the people that don't hate, they appreciate and understand, its quite simple actually.

Anyways it seems like i havent been myself as of late, i really REALLY dumb myself down just for the sake of others and that's all about to stop. I started to begin what people thought of me when just a couple years ago that was the last of my worries...

Let me give you a quick run down just in case there were a few things you didnt know about me. These are 100% Factual and are some things that i've kept inside for some time now. i guerantee this will be a good read, it will be raw and straight forward but hey, in case you didnt know this is the past that made me today...


- I was the most troubled teenager walking from grade 9 to grade 10. My day's consisted of waking up, smoking a blunt before school and drinking OE's in between classes. School would end and i would smoke another one and drink some more, this was my routine week by week.

- There was a month when i fought a total of 17 times. I fought two guys in the rain in front of inside nightclub, i'm pretty sure everyone remembers that one seeing as how i stopped traffic for 7 minutes. There was this dude in college who i had a problem with, a big deezed up guy who would work out and practice his little martial arts here and there. We fought at vaughan mills and i knocked him out within 3 minutes, clearly size doesn't matter. If you know how to fight, you can take down anyone which is exactly why i fear NO ONE. I fought 6 guys inside a telus store resulting in alot of store damage. FOR ANY FAMILY READING THIS, I WAS A KID !

- I was addicted to drinking lean for 8 months, my suggestion is to stay the hell away from it, it may taste and look fruity but is extremely dangerous.

- I've never cheated on a girl, i've came extremely close a few times and regret it more than you know. You don't have to cheat on someone to hurt them and i feel really bad for all those that i've hurt in the past, from the bottom of my heart i am truly sorry to all of you. BUT some of you get nothing but my MIDDLE FINGER and a FCUK YOU.

- In grade 12 and first year college i was extremely materialistic to the point where every paycheque would be blown on shoes,hats and cloths and the casino. I've grown since then now and no longer try my hardest to look a certain way, i strictly dress with what looks comfortable, call it preppy, gangster, thuggish, skatehead, whatever, cloths are cloths so KILL the labeling.

- I once smoked an ounce of weed with just one other person, pretty crazy eh? Well what's crazy to me is it was on the picnic table in front of the division 12 police headquarters at 3 am. If any family is reading this, I WAS A KID !!!

- I Can Skateboard when i want to, I read Books and comics, i love superhero movies, i love candy and anything sweet. I can be the biggest nerd at times, some have only seen that side of me and nothing else, you're lucky.

- I listen to HipHop as MUSIC and nothing else. I can rap every mos def and nas lyric and still rap every lil wayne and 50 cent song, i don't hate i just respect.

- I am a huge family person, at the end of the day that's all you really have. My mom is my bestfriend in the entire world besides my girlfriend and my sister. My nephew warms my heart in ways no one can imagine. My cousin Bryan isn't my cousin he is my brother until i die and i will forever love that dude no homo.


- Im cheesy and corny when it comes to a relationship but i can care less, love is love right? Why not show it.

- I kicked a girl out of my car on the highway once and i have no idea how she got home, if you're reading this which you probably are because you're on my msn and you see my blogspot name everyday, I am not sorry for what i did nor do i regret it. I will respect and honor you fully until you do something that makes me change how i see you. I Chase NO girl, believe that.

- I once showed up at a club at with literally 79 people, all with me. We were turned down, so we walked the streets of toronto, all 80 of us. We were stopped by police a total of 12 times that night, happy 20th birthday to me =)

- ** I've already lost count to how many funeral's and viewing's ive been to, alot of friends and some family, there is alot of pain that lies deep within my chest because of this **

- 97% of the problems i've encountered with people were because of girl issues. Guys need to stop beefing with eachother over girls, it's just not worth it to me. If it's a girl that i love then okay lets go, but if it's just a fling or whatever, let it go.

- I've been robbed and mugged once, normally a guy like me would fight back no problem no matter how many of them there are. But when they tell you to open your mouth and they shove a the barrel of a 9mm into the back of your throat, you really have no choice but to just give up, yeah this story is true. My suggestion to you kids, stay away from mackay plaza when you need to. ps, revenge was sweet like candy.

So those are just a FEW of my little secrets, so before you go calling me DRAMA or EMOTIONAL or SENSATIVE, why don't you read those points up there and maybe you'll understand why. The people that call me that don't know me, they don't know 5% of me, if you knew 15% of the shit i went through in my past maybe you wouldn't throw those words at me. No matter how old or intelligent someone is, never judge or come at someone if you don't know or understand them, because that is wrong and immature, not to mention offensive and rude

They don't call me the Realest for nothing.

PART 2 OF THIS POST COMES THURSDAY