~ It's That Time ~

So many things are going through my mind these days its ridiculous. I've been carefully thinking about some important decisions I've made in the past month or so and decisions that I'm going to have to make within the next couple of weeks. In the past two weeks I've had amazing highs and have been blessed with opportunities that I've been waiting on for quite some time. On the other hand I've experienced some tragic but inevitable lows as well. I've came to conclusions that i wish never existed, I've accepted certain things that i know are eating me alive deep down inside but for the sake of others, i just bite my lip. I wish i can just spill everything out without being judged or attacked for what is on my mind. I wish i can just lay down flat on my bed and hear the words, I Got You. Around 3:34pm today something hit me and i didn't know how to react; i sat there while my nephew was running wild around me and i began to think, what exactly is blocking my vision right now, what is it that i can't seem to look past. Hope? Hope...It's a funny word to me. Hope can be deceiving depending on how you look at it; hope can be a test of patience and a strong heart. Hope can also be a a giant clown, dancing in front of you blinding you from the truth, you want to look by him but you can't.

So Now What? Everything on the outside seems to be back to normal and everything looks right. Everything seems perfect, and everything is in sight. Will we last? well we just might. It's one thing in life to get an A+, but it's an entirely different story to Keep It.