~ Did You Forget ~

"At the end of the day when you really break things down and think about it, you're one hell of a guy. From everything i heard about you to how you are as a person, any girl would be beyond lucky to have you, in my opinion and im sure in other's aswell, no guy out there has nothing on you so you should really laugh at your insecurities. Think about it, i know looks don't mean anything but you've dated nothing but amazing girls, some a little off but still extremely hard to get at the same time so why walk with your head down? You have a great job, an amazing family, goodlooks, nice car, a true gentleman, funny, swagger, you read, you write, you know how to have fun but still know how to chill out, your great with kids, polite, helpful, you're bad when you want to be and your just to real for your own good. If i was you i would walk with my chin up to the sky with the biggest smile on your face. I don't know how many times you have to hear it but you are literally one of a kind so act like it for god's sake. Whatever it is that got you down, don't let it because the fact of the matter is, You're just one of the guys that girls wish they could've held on to more after you're gone. Hope this cheers you up homeboy"

Goodlookin x WORD.

~ My Turn ~

Quiet Storm.
Something said Breathe and Act.
Breathe and Act.
Breathe and Act.
Tonight.

~ Intervention ~

When things get a little rough for me, i choose to keep to myself. I find that cluttering my mind with other things wouldnt really help or benefit the situation at all. Going out to chill or do whatever doesn't exactly give me time to think about things or how i can make things better, so what do i do? I drive to starbucks, buy a regular black coffee and read comic after comic until my mind is calm and my blood isnt boiling anymore. It is now 4:39 am and i am still feeling the effects of that massive coffee, i'm wide awake and have nothing to do. But after everything that went down yesterday, i came to many conclusions about different things. Some good and some bad, the bad really sucks but the good can eventually and hopefully mean something better later on. I want to give a quick shout out to spider-man, Wolverine, Deadpool, Every Avenger and member of the infinity Crusade, Venom, Thor, Hawkeye, Gambit and Magneto for keeping me sane lastnight. My love for comic's has returned ! But it's not staying, the days when i read comic books are long gone and i really don't plan to re-live them in full effect. I don't know why it's saying the post time is 1:33 am when its clearly Quarter to 5 now, strange.

For a second i really thought no one read my blog, i don't really get to crazy with promoting it nor do i advertise it as much as the next blog. Although i was pleasently surprised when i found out how many people actually read it, not alot of comments at all but i got messeges on msn from people telling me to write more and express more what i need to say. People telling me to stop grazing the surface of issues and begin to dig deeper. I ran into my friend at sq1 today and she told me how my blog is on her blackberry as a favorite, i didn't believe so she showed me and i was thrown back, goodlookin homie. I love how i still get that love, and not those stupid hater comments suggesting im a little too drama or emotional, those kinds or people are just not mentally in tune with themselves the way i am. Jump down to previous blogs if you REALLY want to know why i am this way.

" The Reason why i like your blog is because i know the whole idea of it is nothing more than a tease, i know you well enough to know that you really are dumbing yourself down just because you know people arn't ready for what you have to say. Thats when you know your ahead of your time big homie, keep it up "

Now i don't want to be picky, but i would appreciate it if people actually left comments on my BLOG and not on msn or facebook chat haha or on my blackberry haha.

ANYWAYS. it's ten to five so i really have to attempt to go to sleep, word. Until next time, keep posted.
Good Morning World.

~ Back To Hello ~

When do things in a relationship begin to get scary, when does happiness turn into pain. Someone told me today, it doesn't matter what went down nor does it matter who was wrong. It doesn't matter if the person loves you back nor does it matter if they care, all that matters is how YOU yourself feel inside. See, today was hard for me, extremely hard for me and i was left with two options as of 1:30am. Either i say you know what, she was wrong therefore she has to fix things and she has to come to me. OR i can act my age, smarten up and do what i gotta do for my relationship to make it right. But before i do that, let me say something...

When you have something really good, and you know that 80% of the time he will treat you good. My suggestion is to look at that 80% when an arguement goes down. That 80% will give you all the proof and resources you need to make things right. Remember that being angry and upset is nothing but a feeling, nothing more. But love, real love is something extremely rare. Basically what im trying to say is this, there are alot of messed up relationships out there, cheating boyfriends, lying boyfriends, and the same goes with girls. But if you have someone who's intentions for you are nothing but good, try and see that and hold on to that person. Don't be a person who only see's all the good in someone after they're gone, because you become nothing more than a statistic.

AH, BRB.

~ Life's a Chase ~

This is a random photo that i found on my computer of me chasing a bird. Why did i post this? I have no idea, i just thought it looked funny. This is going to be a completely useless post, i'm just wide awake and bored. I have the week off of work so im intentionally staying awake. Although i am keeping myself highly productive, i color co-ordinated my closet, i've done about 3 loads of laundry and cleaned out my computer again.

Anyways, i usually write all of my post on notepad first, go through them a few times then post them here afterwards. I actually have about 12-14 post that i have saved that i just keep getting back to every so often, when they're all complete i'll post them one by one. I find that My blogsite is a drastically watered down invitation to what exactly goes on through my head. Why do water it down? it's simple, if i was to completely hit everyone up with how i feel about things, you're going to catch those "Knowledge Haters" [Description on post below] Who are going to call me the usualy words that Haters use..."Drama, Too Sensitive, Emotional". I usually clasify those people into one category and that category is as follows...People who don't understand or know, but really think they do thus resulting in them looking like idiots. Although there is a large group of real intellects who actually read my blog and say "Yeah that's some serious shit, speak whatever's on your mind, why hold back?". Those are the people that don't hate, they appreciate and understand, its quite simple actually.

Anyways it seems like i havent been myself as of late, i really REALLY dumb myself down just for the sake of others and that's all about to stop. I started to begin what people thought of me when just a couple years ago that was the last of my worries...

Let me give you a quick run down just in case there were a few things you didnt know about me. These are 100% Factual and are some things that i've kept inside for some time now. i guerantee this will be a good read, it will be raw and straight forward but hey, in case you didnt know this is the past that made me today...


- I was the most troubled teenager walking from grade 9 to grade 10. My day's consisted of waking up, smoking a blunt before school and drinking OE's in between classes. School would end and i would smoke another one and drink some more, this was my routine week by week.

- There was a month when i fought a total of 17 times. I fought two guys in the rain in front of inside nightclub, i'm pretty sure everyone remembers that one seeing as how i stopped traffic for 7 minutes. There was this dude in college who i had a problem with, a big deezed up guy who would work out and practice his little martial arts here and there. We fought at vaughan mills and i knocked him out within 3 minutes, clearly size doesn't matter. If you know how to fight, you can take down anyone which is exactly why i fear NO ONE. I fought 6 guys inside a telus store resulting in alot of store damage. FOR ANY FAMILY READING THIS, I WAS A KID !

- I was addicted to drinking lean for 8 months, my suggestion is to stay the hell away from it, it may taste and look fruity but is extremely dangerous.

- I've never cheated on a girl, i've came extremely close a few times and regret it more than you know. You don't have to cheat on someone to hurt them and i feel really bad for all those that i've hurt in the past, from the bottom of my heart i am truly sorry to all of you. BUT some of you get nothing but my MIDDLE FINGER and a FCUK YOU.

- In grade 12 and first year college i was extremely materialistic to the point where every paycheque would be blown on shoes,hats and cloths and the casino. I've grown since then now and no longer try my hardest to look a certain way, i strictly dress with what looks comfortable, call it preppy, gangster, thuggish, skatehead, whatever, cloths are cloths so KILL the labeling.

- I once smoked an ounce of weed with just one other person, pretty crazy eh? Well what's crazy to me is it was on the picnic table in front of the division 12 police headquarters at 3 am. If any family is reading this, I WAS A KID !!!

- I Can Skateboard when i want to, I read Books and comics, i love superhero movies, i love candy and anything sweet. I can be the biggest nerd at times, some have only seen that side of me and nothing else, you're lucky.

- I listen to HipHop as MUSIC and nothing else. I can rap every mos def and nas lyric and still rap every lil wayne and 50 cent song, i don't hate i just respect.

- I am a huge family person, at the end of the day that's all you really have. My mom is my bestfriend in the entire world besides my girlfriend and my sister. My nephew warms my heart in ways no one can imagine. My cousin Bryan isn't my cousin he is my brother until i die and i will forever love that dude no homo.


- Im cheesy and corny when it comes to a relationship but i can care less, love is love right? Why not show it.

- I kicked a girl out of my car on the highway once and i have no idea how she got home, if you're reading this which you probably are because you're on my msn and you see my blogspot name everyday, I am not sorry for what i did nor do i regret it. I will respect and honor you fully until you do something that makes me change how i see you. I Chase NO girl, believe that.

- I once showed up at a club at with literally 79 people, all with me. We were turned down, so we walked the streets of toronto, all 80 of us. We were stopped by police a total of 12 times that night, happy 20th birthday to me =)

- ** I've already lost count to how many funeral's and viewing's ive been to, alot of friends and some family, there is alot of pain that lies deep within my chest because of this **

- 97% of the problems i've encountered with people were because of girl issues. Guys need to stop beefing with eachother over girls, it's just not worth it to me. If it's a girl that i love then okay lets go, but if it's just a fling or whatever, let it go.

- I've been robbed and mugged once, normally a guy like me would fight back no problem no matter how many of them there are. But when they tell you to open your mouth and they shove a the barrel of a 9mm into the back of your throat, you really have no choice but to just give up, yeah this story is true. My suggestion to you kids, stay away from mackay plaza when you need to. ps, revenge was sweet like candy.

So those are just a FEW of my little secrets, so before you go calling me DRAMA or EMOTIONAL or SENSATIVE, why don't you read those points up there and maybe you'll understand why. The people that call me that don't know me, they don't know 5% of me, if you knew 15% of the shit i went through in my past maybe you wouldn't throw those words at me. No matter how old or intelligent someone is, never judge or come at someone if you don't know or understand them, because that is wrong and immature, not to mention offensive and rude

They don't call me the Realest for nothing.

PART 2 OF THIS POST COMES THURSDAY

~ HATER ~

Alot of people these days seem to be getting the true definition of a hater a little backwards. Everyone seem's to think they know what a hater is but are actually so far from it. What makes me right? Well take it from a guy who probably has the most haters out there, just because i get the most love out there. So here we go, The True Definition of a hater broken down so it's easy to understand.

A POSSESSION HATER
These are really common actually, possession haters can be found almost everyday. A possession hater is basically someone who hates on someone for having something that they want. They see the item or whatever it may be and they bash it or criticize it. They try their hardest to find some kind of fault in it, just to make themselves feel better for not having it. Instead of giving praise or showing excitement for that person having that possession, they get quiet and it secretly kills them inside that the opposing person has something better than they do. Possession Hater's GROW UP.

KNOWLEDGE HATERS
I personally hate knowledge haters the most for the simple reason that i have to dumb myself down ALOT just to prevent an overload on hate. Now this can be knowledge about ANYTHING in life, whether it be Hip-Hop, Education, Politics, Fashion, Relationships, You Name it. If a person is conversing with someone and they pick up on the idea that the other person knows awhole lot more about the topic of issue, they turn on the hate switch. How? They again, get quiet not saying anything because they basically know they got son'd BUT are afraid to admit it. So instead of agreeing and understanding and giving respect to that person for knowing more about it, they show hate. And believe me, the presence of hate can be felt without a word being said. For example, i once had a conversation with a guy in school about hiphop, i basically game'd this dude in every possible way you can imagine regarding hiphop and all forms of it to the point where he was just like "Nah, i dont agree". He got silent on some " i have to be right, you have to be wrong " shit. That my friends is a hater, instead of understanding and seeing where im coming from, and accepting the fact that i know more about the topic, they choose to catch an attitude because they KNOW, they got GOT. Knowledge Haters, SMARTEN UP.

SWAGGER HATERS
I dont have a bone to pick with swagger haters too much just because swagger is what THAT individual makes it to be, Not what the norm is. It's sad to say that the norm these days was something i was only able to get up on for a few months before it blew up, causing me to fall back and say nope i will not be a part of this. Although there are your typical Labelers out there who stil point fingers. For example, i dress how i want to dress based on how i feel that day. One day i can wear baggy joggers and a hoody with a fitted backwards. Now some would say that dude is a thug, then i will pick up a skateboard, throw it back to grade 12 and pop a shovey in front of their face, NOW am i a thug? or a skatehead? OR i can wear some tight jeans, a spitfire shirt and some undftd chucks. People will say that dude is a skater, but what if you talk to me and i reply like a gangster while packing a .45 in my pocket, What am i now? A gangster? Thats exactly how the REAL confuse the HATERS. Somedays i will throw on a tie and some fitted jeans and people will say that dude can dress pretty nice, but once i throw on a fitted and lower my jeans a little, am i all of a sudden a gangster? Nah the cloths don't make the man, the man make's the cloths. Swagger Haters, FREE YOUR MIND.

RELATIONSHIP HATERS
This is simple. I was in a relationship before with a girl who had a sibling that was a year older who was also in a relationship. Her boyfriend was the hater, why? Well it's simple, i was a better boyfriend to my girlfriend that he was to his girlfriend causing some hate. He knew i was better in every way but at the same time i was a cool guy and there was nothing wrong with me. That caused him to hate on me and put up this front like he liked me when deep inside he was saying "This dude is better than me, i gotta hate on me", Girl's do the same thing, but not as much. They tend to just do their own thing and not worry about the next girl or what she's doing. I remember having to dumb myself down sometimes just so that guy looked like he was better than me at times, but inside i was laughing.

MUSIC HATERS
Will these haters ever go away? No. Jin said it best in the song "BackPack BackPack", Shoutout JIN. [ Funny thing is, Because of HATERS i never release the fact that i know dude, I met jin at tonic a few years back and i set my man up with him who's done some mixtapes and production for jin. Last time jin blew me up was 2007 on my birthday, WORD TO GOD. But i never let people know because your gonna get those haters that say " oh jin sucks anyways, he's no where now " Well, he's done alot more than you, HATER ]. Anyways dude basically states that there are alot of fake hiphop heads out there, who know nothing about the culture. A true hater says this, these days rap is about too much bling bling and click clack. A true hiphop head would know bling bling started with KRS ONE, flashing that big ass gold chain. Tsk Tsk, Music Hater Habit #1. Haters will also say Cam'ron and 50 Cent are whack and can't rhyme. Really? Listen to power of a dollar and Come home with me and then we'll see who knows hiphop. People who think listening to Mos Def and Skillz and Babu means that you are automatically a hiphop head. Little do they know, Mos Def and 50 cent have Done work together. What happens when Common and The Game make a track together? What are you going to label that as now? Confused? Yeah only music haters get confused, a real hiphop head calls that a COLLABO. Music Haters, POP IN GET RICH OR DIE TRYIN AND SIT THE HELL DOWN. Ps, Find my Post about Lupe Fiasco for a better explanation on HipHop, i mean...MUSIC.

Ok so basically i just touched base on three types of haters, there are plenty more which i will further explain later simple because im tired.

When it comes right down to it, it is the people who are so full of themselves that hate the most. People who really feel like they are the better than someone else and have something up on them who hate the most. People who feel they know everything about every issue or topic in this world are the haters, why? Because they never open up their mind to see someone else's perspective or view on something, thus leading to hate. " Eww that dude dressed like a thug " So what? You're mad because he dresses like a thug? What if that dude was smarter than you and can get more girls than you? Then you would really be mad because that same dude who dresses like a thug, is better than YOU.

I know for a fact that im not a hater in any form or way. let me explain why, if someone has something i want i would simply say, "hey thats sick, how much was it? do you like it? how is it? Congrats bro, good buy." Thats how a non-hater talks. A hater would reply with, "Eh, it's okay" or just stay silent when deep inside they know they want it and like it so much but are afraid to show it, just because they don't want to big someone else up. I used to be the biggest Nas head in the world, since grade 8 i would spit illmatic b4 somepeople even knew who ILLWILL was. Someone would tell me yo jay-z is that dude, and being young and naive and immature i was like nah son that nigga ain't got it. As i grew older i opened my mind up and didnt restrict myself or hate on something i didnt know anything about, now i know every jay-z song word for word but can still lay down illmatic word for word. Why? Because im not a hater, i didn't hate one over the other, i gave respect where it was due and up'd my knowledge on music. SON'd. I dont hate on anyone or anything, there is just simply nothing out there for me to be jealous of. I feel like im at the top of my game in everything and no one has anything on me I dumb myself down alot just to make it seem like i'm not so cocky, because of course those HATERS would say ew that dude is so cocky blah blah blah. ALTHOUGH the people who are NOT haters would UNDERSTAND that a guy like me CAN be cocky if i want to, just because of my past and i have the credentials and knowledge to back it up.

Haters, you hate them but you need them. You love them but you can't stand them.
Stay Tuned for PART 2 on the HATER dictionary where i might have to splash some names. I can't get mad at you haters nor can i judge you, all i can say is this...You just don't know as much as you think you know, so stop the hating.

Goodnight.

~ So He Raps Again ~

~ How It's Supposed To Be Done ~

~ Alright ~

" Everytime i read what you write about your gf, it makes me tear. Sometimes i wonder if your for real! me and my boyfriend would look at your relationship and i keep forcing him to do stuff like that but he won't ! don't change dude you're love for your girlfriend is something else "

yea...i know


mood's low.

~ 50 CENT IS THAT DUDE ~

Now im not the biggest 50 cent fan, i mean he's alright but theres a little too much blam blak click clack in his rhymes for me. Although he is and always will be the funniest dude i know, he will do anything to shut someone down, that's just power right there. He will dig up dirt on anyone and just son them to the ground. He currently has beef with mr.ricky ross and this is 50 cent with rick's baby momssss ! hahahaha i was laughing so hard when i saw this, saying to myself...this nigga man. LOL at 0:58 seconds, look at the grin on dudes face. He's basically saying, yeah i did it haha. CLASSIC SHIT