For some reason i've been having some serious security issues with myself, why? shit i dont know. I've never felt like this before, for the 22 years that i've been living on this earth i've been the most confident dude walking around the face of the earth, until now. In any situation that i've been in i've always felt like i was more than enough, and i had good reason to feel that way. It was strictly feedback and constant love and support that i would get from everyone that made me feel like i was king of the hill day in and day out. Although somewhere along the lines i lost that confidence and security, where did it go? Im not to sure. My friend asked me why i was buggin out and i told them the reason why and i got this reply on my BB.
" YOU?!?!?!?!? insecure? has the world gone mad, are pigs flying? I swear to god you were the most confident and certain guy i know. Hell, for the longest time you were the cockiest dude alive but for legitimate reasons of course. Did you randomly wake up one morning and forget everything you've done/been through? All those people that followed you around? Wanted to act and be like you? All those girls not to mention a few models that wanted you? Have you forgotten how much you have accomplished with yourself in school? Do i have to remind you that you single handedly ran the entire school in grade 11 and 12? For the longest time, people looked at you as that guy everyone wanted to hate, simply because of all the love you got. You had that bad guy look, sometimes that bad guy attitude overlaying a kind hearted selfless nerd, what more can someone want? You have the best family in the world, an amazing supporting cast of people, a beautiful car ! [ i know you wanted me to say that ], goodlooks! the sense of humor! the credentials! not to mention quite the swagger and persona! and just a selfless heart beyond comprehension. YOU?!??!?! insecure? I thought you were joking at first jay, whatever it is that you feel insecure about, look at it and laugh because you might have forgotten who you were, but believe me when i say there is a shit load of important people who didnt. im pretty sure a million people are telling you this stuff but take it from me, your good homie"WORDxWORDThats all i needed, that all i needed to hear. Where the fuck did things go wrong? when i did i start looking at the mirror, seeing a different reflection? After reading that, a huge imaginary hand came across my face and it was the hardest slap i've ever felt in my life. ME?!?!?!??! insecure? What the !@!*&$#*#&!@ ???
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